Jezyka

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Full on, I'm serious.

I'm not having my baby for at least another year, but I want to be prepared and finding middle names is hard!

So, for a girl I like the name Tayla and for a boy I like Dylan. Last name is Jones if that helps. And the middle name for Tayla can't begin with a J or it will conflict with Jones and so on..

Please Help!

Thank you!

Well, I need to rant.

To begin with: I'm 18 and I weigh 55.8kgs. My goal weight is 43kgs. that sounds excellent.

I am a calorie counter and It's all i can think about. the numbers numbers numbers. how many numbers I am, how many numbers I've eaten, how many numbers I've burnt.

I have a mild form of OCD too by the way.

I used to be a cutter. I have been since I was 12. But ever since I've stopped, well that's when this whole body image thing started. I only became like this when I was 17.

YOu see, my mum was very sick when I was a teenager. She went into hospital, had a heart attack and a stroke and was kept alive by those machines. She's also blind now. Well she has 2% vision actually.

My older sister has bipolar and tried to kill herself many times. She also had mild bulimia. Because of this, I felt I couldn't tell my mum about how I was, I didn't want to disappoint her.

Anyway, I've always been the good, sweet child with a good relationship with my everarguing parents. I just fininshed highschool. My sister had dropped out in yr11 then had a baby at age 17. It's all up to me.

I don't know, I guess I've always felt the pressure. Well now, I don't know what I'm doing. I don't really have friends because I ****** them up all with my psychotic paranoia and depression and cutting and they dont speak to me any more. Thats just how it is. Reach out for help and they push you away. A sign never to get help. To stay blanketed in your pain forever.