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My mum has asked a therapist to see me. The problem is that the problem I have is that I find it hard to show emotion. How to I tell the therapist how I feel, if the problem is that I don't know how to tell people how I feel. I don't know I should speak to her. When I try to express how I feel, I tend to come up empty, or I cry until I throw up. It's quite ridiculous. Not only is this a problem, I self harm - and I don't know why. How do I explain that I do something so stupid with no reason? It's awful. How can I just let go?

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I screamed out to no one as the pain tore through me, relentless and excruciating. My breaths came in short pants as I tried to inhale the little oxygen still available to me. I screamed and screamed until my throat became hoarse and raw. The sound became but a whisper as the pain continued to take over my body, pushing me down, pressuring me into the hard concrete, dampened with my blood. Black and grey smoke spiralled into the dense air above me, expanding and growing until the sky had become a thick smog, impenetrable and suffocating, searing my wounds as it left them. I gasped for air, my lungs burning with every shallow intake. My final pleas for life were inaudible. I grappled at the smoke above me, watching as it slipped through my fingers, unstirred. My legs and arms became heavy as paralysis settled between my joints. My thoughts became a mess of runes and patterns, memories and reveries. My last breath left me while I gazed up to the sky, my eyes glassing over as the last of my life rippled into the air.

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I was previously regular, though had very heavy/painful periods (I often threw up/passed out) I went to the doctors and they told me it would pass, and that it was because I had only had my period for two years, and we did nothing about it. This was 7-8 months ago. Then, about four months ago, my periods stopped. I haven't had one since. Why?

I'm 15 - 5'3" - 96lbs (approx) - 7 stone (approx) - sexually active

I think I suffer from the syndrome in which you try to get attention by feigning mental illness. I don't know why I do it, but I don't want to. I think I'm a compulsive liar aswell, I want to stop but at the time, it just comes out. It's deathly word commit and it's gonna land me in deep sh*t if I don't sort it out soon. I think therapy would be best but I'm fourteen, how do I tell my parents that I'm a lying b*tch and I don't want to be anymore.

Thanks:)

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Thanks! Beth💕

GCSE GROUP CHOREOGRAPHY:

My style is contemporary, matching this poem as my stimulus:

Remember, Elizabeth Jennings

Remember wings when you think of me

wings of the butterfly

wings of a swift

think of the sky and the look and the lift

of the sea gulls wings and their swoop and drift

a spell is how a bird feels

when it takes to the cloud puffed air,

and feels the wind for the first time

over its wings, feels their delicate flutterings

a spell is this and other things

often clasped in a rhyme

when you think of spells remember the best

dreams you had on a day of sun

when the colour of poppy and buttercup ran

and the world of creatures first began

and everything was blessed

you cannot expect or search for a spell

it comes to you with the rise of a breeze

runs through your veins like the wind used trees

it is the voice of the changing seas

caught in the shape of a shell.

*punctuation is not correct*

The poem could be about finding God, or Love, it could mean something different to everyone, but i think it's about love or God, and I'd like a piece of music that reflects that. It needs to be slow, but have a huge climax/crecendo that I can choreograph to, and i'd like it to be really EMOTIONAL. It will be a duet with a male, so there is a possibility for lifts, ect.

It also needs to be INSTRUMENTAL

Thanks!

These last few days have been a struggle for me. Everyone thinks I have 'problems'. By everyone, I meany friends, teachers and family. My best friend, suffers from depression. I get the feeling that she thinks I'm suffering because I'm sad. She thinks, along with my mum and teachers that I need counseling, because I'm so obviously screwed up, I just can't see it. I just don't think I need help. Yes I'm sad sometimes, but sad doesn't mean pain or suffering, does it?

Stupidly, I cut myself. I understand now, that this was a stupid thing to do, because I can't hide it. Now my mums seen it, she thinks I'm fuckin* nuts. Why?! Why can't I be left to deal with this on my own? Why do I need help? Why is sad the same as suffering. I've lost my best friend because 'I can't admit I'm not okay'. How can I 'admit' I'm not okay, if I'm okay? I don't get it.

Sarah <3

Since Friday, I have been experiencing some quite scary symptoms that I suffer when I have occasional panic attacks, yet it seems more mild, and on going. I have little control over the left side of my body, and I have 'the shakes' constantly. I don't think this is due to sugar levels. I've encountered periods were I cannot help but cry, and yet I don't think I'm sad, and feel like all of my body parts are disconnected from each other. I'm finding it impossible to sleep, and worrying a lot of the people around me. I have been sick 16 times since Friday, and find I'm experiencing waves of nausea every hour or so. I'm not really sure what to do with myself. I can hardly write because of the shaking, and bursting in to tears in every other lesson doesn't really suit me. It seems that these symptoms are on and off. Apart from the shaking, I feel fine now, but fear I will start to panic in an hour or so, and I won't know what to do. I feel a little paranoid, but I can't explain what about. I feel like someone's watching me, but every time I move, the person changes and I can't work it out.

I'm scared.

Sarah

My best friend is clinically depressed. I really care for her, and want to help her in every way I can, but sometimes I find it really difficult. Although most people will tell me 'you can't possibly understand what she's going through' I really think I do, however it's not what I want to say i'm struggling with. I want to know how I should let her know how much I care for her and how much I want to help.

The biggest problem I have is that, a lot of the time, she talks about how she can't cope, and that her 'soul is becoming evil, and full of hatred'. To this, I don't know how to respond. I have tried saying things like, 'you're still fighting,' and 'You aren't evil, nor full of hatred' (with more emotive language and nicer words, of course) but I just feel uncomfortable saying these things.

She looks up to me and admires me for no reason at all. I'm not someone anyone should admire. My personality is not desirable, and yet she puts me on the highest pedestal of all. She thinks I'm strong. I don't think I'm strong at all. To be strong, you must be fighting, and I'm not fighting. How can I make her see this?

I'm 16, and a girl:)

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